Sent by Wern Ming • Oct 1, 2023
It started with a question, “If you are real, God, why won’t you show me?” For some time I had not felt God to be real, and I demanded that He speak to me audibly. Our God asks for total commitment and surrender of our whole lives, and I felt that it was only fair that He cleared my doubts.
3 months later, I went for a health check and discovered that I had a tumour of 7cm x 6cm next to my heart. The specialist diagnosed me with having a “Thymoma”, a type of cancer where abnormal cells grow in the thymus gland, and advised me to have it surgically removed.
Strangely, during a visit to a surgeon’s clinic, the nurse there had whispered to me to find another surgeon. After prodding from us, the nurse advised that the surgeon tended to overwork and was prone to making mistakes during surgeries. God had intervened.
God then led us to another surgeon. Miraculously, this surgeon gave us a consultation on a Saturday that same week, even though weekends are normally off limits. His next available surgery slot was 3 months away, but because of a patient withdrawal, he was available the following week. I immediately took up the surgery slot.
During this time, God showed Himself through many ways. My best friend, who had himself struggled with God being real in His life, told me while visiting, “Ming, God is real and He has been real in my life.” God had converted his heart after he had spent many years not finding Him real.
Furthermore, my CG mentor couple Uncle John and Aunty Hoon made a great effort to be with me throughout this journey. I felt God’s love and care through them. My CG was always there too for me, reminding me of the family I had in Jesus.
Surgery and recovery went smoothly, and thankfully it was just stage 1 cancer. This was a strong reminder to me that I needed to treat each day as a blessing and to live it for Him. Now, even though I have fully recovered from the surgery, I still need to go for follow-up scans periodically to check for recurrence. I go through this relying on His continued grace, goodness, strength and providence in my life.
Through this experience, God rescued me from unbelief, helping me to find Him real in my everyday life. I now rely on him daily, as He has become my everything – my Abba father, my friend, my life’s meaning.