Sent by Samuel John • Feb 17, 2023
I was tested positive for Covid-19 on the 18th of April 2021. I had difficulty in breathing and faced another medical issue that did not help my recovery.
My cell leader and members started a prayer chain for me while Pastor Allan and Pastor Moy How encouraged me throughout the journey. I had shortness of breath, fever and was very weak and that made me very afraid that I might end up as a statistic on the death toll reported daily.
When I left my house, the thought of not ever seeing my family again ran through my mind and that made me even more sad. There was no chance of saying goodbye, let alone hugs and kisses. I was heart-broken but did not question God, believing that everything happens according to His will for He had allowed this to happen to me. My prayer to Christ was simple – God give me strength and help me through this. I was transferred to a high risk ward and was monitored for the next 3 days.Thank God I was able to breathe on my own despite being very weak. I remember asking Jesus if my time was up. And His answer was simple – “I am not done with you yet”. That answer gave me the assurance that I would survive this journey that I was going through.
However, as the days passed by, I began to feel demotivated, upset and angry with God. My hidden inner feelings emerged and I complained to God by arguing that I was doing my very best and had surrendered my life to Him. What else did He want from me? There was nothing else that I could possibly give Him. But God was silent… until the 7th day in the centre. It was a moment of re-aligning my life again and re-adjusting the way I thought and did things.
It’s amazing how God answers us when we are at our last glimmer of hope. My answer came in the form of a call from my brother-in-law, encouraging me to push forward and to look to God for that extra mile that I really needed to travel. God really dealt with me, not only in breaking me, but also in making me more humble. He wanted to bring out the best version of myself and there were some parts of me that he needed to remove.
I cried and surrendered my all to God. As I surrendered to God, I felt His presence empowering me. I know there are people who have gone through much worse situations because of this virus. But as for me, God used this virus as a part of my learning curve to trust Him even more. God turned what the world saw as a bad pandemic into the best thing for my life. It took a bad experience to bring out the best in me. I praise God for His goodness and His strength for bringing me through.
God, in good and bad times I will praise you. Amen