Contributed by Wendy ML Tan • Nov 18, 2025

I want to do more for Jesus. And I want people to hear the Gospel. I want them to have the light of life and experience the goodness of God. I want it so much, but how can I? How can I when I have my own struggles and when I am in pain? How can I take the step forward when I feel that the world is crushing down on me? When I am overwhelmed and all I want to do; is nothing.

Just this week alone, I experienced an episode of burnout. I couldn’t move myself to do my assignments, or to go to work or to attend the morning sessions of the 3-day fast and prayer gatherings at church. Or even to do laundry, or ironing, or weeding, I didn’t even feel like treating myself to crisps and cola. There was little motivation to get anything started. I couldn’t sleep at night even though my eyes were tired from watching episodes of various Netflix series. And to top it off, I have had doses of oral antibiotics and steroid creams to treat the rash that spread all over my skin since mid-September. I have had chills, nausea and dizziness. Every day, I lament to God that I feel uncomfortable.

I know though, that God is so good to me. There were little things that would happen in my favour.I knew it was Him watching out for me. Then, last Friday afternoon, I had to bring my car to the service center because there was a whistling sound when I started the engine to go out. As I sat waiting for my car to be fixed, I decided to open up and share with a few friends that I was having a very hard time. Every single friend responded with care and concern.

On Friday night at CG, unbeknownst to the song leader, he’d picked a song that spoke to my heart. On Saturday evening before Celebrations, someone shared some uplifting Bible verses to me. And then after Celebrations, I bumped into a very close friend and we decided to have an impromptu dinner together. We had a good catch-up, and she gave me a piece of sound advice that affirmed what God had told me a week ago. I went home with the enthusiasm to sit through Saturday night’s Engage huddle, though I didn’t start writing till Sunday night. At least I started on something.

I am not the light of life; Jesus is. What I am to do is to reflect His light to others and there are two ways of doing that. One is to use whatever that we have to share the Gospel and tell the world about Jesus. For me, I have my stories and that is why I write. Second, is to meet people where their needs are. I needed encouragement and inspiration and thankfully, I received them from friends who paused in their busy routines to reach out to me.

Even as a child of God, we still need the light of life in our lives. What more the people who do not know Christ. May our lives be a testament of His testimony.

♫ “To this I hold, my hope is only Jesus. All the glory evermore to Him. When the race is complete, still my lips shall repeat “Yet not I, but through Christ in me”. ♫